what I don’t think I think

I know.
I know what you’re thinking.
I don’t care what you think.
You think I don’t care what you think.
I don’t.
I don’t care what you think.
You think I don’t care what you think and you’re right. I think.
I think I don’t care what you think.
No, I’m sure I don’t care what you think.
You think I think too much.
I think you think too much.
You think I’m boring.
I think you’re boring.
You think my reactions are unimaginative.
I think you are imagining things.
I imagine that you think I think too much.
But maybe that’s not what you think, maybe I’m wrong
maybe you think I don’t think enough
maybe you think I think an appropriate amount
maybe you think I think too much
Yes I think that’s probably what you think
especially by now
I’m sure that’s what your eyes mean
your mean eyes mean
I’m like a flower that you burn in your fiery sun
I’m like a flower that you drown in an ocean of rain
But I’m a flower.
Water and sunshine can do me no harm.
You say that’s what you’re saying,
that’s what you said,
that’s all you’ve ever said
and that’s what you’re saying now.
Here is some water, and here is some sunshine.
They don’t mean anything.
It doesn’t mean anything.
You don’t look like you need it, I just thought maybe you might like it.
You don’t look like you need anything.
Oh really? I don’t? How kind of you to say.
I have been practicing in front of the mirror.
But I really must need something, or else I would believe me and not you.
But I don’t believe you.
Why don’t I believe you?
I yawn when I’m tired.
You yawned because you were tired,
not because I’m boring
You left because you had a plane to catch early in the morning.
You sneezed because I laughed.
You sneezed because I laughed?
Sometimes I really don’t understand you.
Sometimes I really wonder what you’re thinking.
But let’s be clear: I wonder—but I don’t care.
I’m curious, not sensitive. Not sensitive at all.
I don’t care what you think.
I don’t even care what I think, I don’t think.
Why should I?
What good does it do?
Oh I don’t know, maybe it’s true. Maybe I do.
Tell me what you were thinking and then I’ll tell you whether I care.
-an offer I never refuse-
Were you thinking that I don’t care what you think?
Because if you were, then you’re right.
And if you weren’t, well, I don’t care what you think.
What do you think about that?
Wait—don’t tell me—because I don’t care. I know.
And knowing is much better than caring.
No, I don’t know.
I don’t know. I just don’t know. Why did I think I would know?
Why do I think I know what you think?
What was I thinking to think that I might know what you were thinking?
I have no idea why I think I know what you’re thinking.
I don’t know what you’re thinking.
And it doesn’t matter, because I don’t care what you’re thinking.
I don’t.
I really don’t care what you’re thinking.
Really.
Not at all.
I don’t.